Goodbye Love

The songs I sang to you as a tribute of my love are echoing through the empty space where the word relationship once resided.

I'm numb to those words now. 

I'm replaying those moments in black and white to make myself believe they are apart of distant history. 

I know I'm still bleeding and the wounds are freshly ripped open every time I miss the tenderness of your kiss and firm touch. 

I promise to clean up all traces of my pain before you enter the room.

I'll wear armor so that it can hold me together in your presence.

I'll find a smile that belongs in the moment and I will wear it so I can glance at you from behind the dark curtain of my broken heart. 

A new package has arrived with the word friendship across the label and I am carefully examining it before I let myself accept its content. 

I don't know if I will ever love like this again. 

How could I replicate a love like this?

I know you're hurting too

In what seems to be a perfect balance I am searching for the loss in you.

How can you seem so, ok.

The constant critic in my mind says you don't show it because its not there.

I don't want to believe her.

Can we mourn together, let us lay ourselves down in a grave and weep hand in hand. 

Our tears will water seeds and one day we can smile as we pass one ending and step into a new beginning.