Insomnia

Cover me in moss and lay me at the foot of a strong tree that my mind might find refuge in slumber.

If I could hide in my subconscious I'd visit my last vision of you.

Sun spots on green eyes filled with focus and drive, that I've watched in stolen moments to capture your full essence. Strong hands that grip my hip and my heart, giving security beyond understanding. Your voice speaking calm into my unending storm, whispering of the universe and love that spans infinite lifetimes.

Sun rays through raven hair and gentle laughter that fills the room bringing with it peace. A hand soft and gentle fitting into mine, eyes golden brown which reminds me that the sun will return after the night. Rose petal lips that release words and set my heart to dancing.

Let me go back to the moment before misconstrued words and broken intentions.

Let me leave this painstaking silence, even if just for a moment.

I shatter as I watch the heaviness he carries in the cavities of his heart. I hear him call out to you from his sleep and I wish to join him in harmony.

Yet my mind holds me hostage, stanzas and lyrics set to melancholy melodies play as a procession in my mind.

I dig my feet into the ground in disbelief at the possibility of our candle being extinguished.

Please don't make me walk into that moment.

Please don't show me a graveyard filled with us, our hopes and dreams of forever.

Please grant me a glance of their hands in mine walking through the world, secure and safe together.

Please lay me down and give me rest from this nightmare of being the cause of your pain and heartbreak.

Please....